Maturity

In these last 3 days of my life, I've never felt more mature than I do now. Usually when I have problems I tend to runaway or rely on someone to distract me from what's happening to me. But, lately after chatting with 3 really good friends of mine, I learned that what I'm going through is completely normal and common at this stage in my life. I realized that this is life. I've been sooo sheltered from the most complex human emotions that I was never equipped with the strength to deal with them on my own. I only encountered them through others and on TV, so I always thought it would be easy to deal with until I started experiencing it, too.

Things are starting to look up for me as I had hoped they would once a certain puzzle piece fell into place. Now, I have a plan or goal to work towards as I start developing a better appreciation for the situation I've been given. What's scary is how this really is the beginning of my new life as an "adult"... no more safe "school/college" bubble to hide under. I'm definitely not going to let myself get hurt by others because of my own insecurities. Heh, I totally feel like LC from "The Hills" right now... minus the mediocre clothing line.