Happy New Year's Eve 2008

What's everybody doing tonight? Spending $150+ on entry into a swanky club with open bar? Or having casual kickbacks at someone's house? Maybe dropping at TAO?

The better question is: what am I doing? I honestly don't know. All I know is that I need to determine my plans soon so I can plan accordingly. Spending another New Year's Eve alone is not an option!

As for this year's resolutions, I'm aiming for "do-ability":

1. Be healthy
2. Be happy, wiser, and stronger
3. Get a career plan in motion
4. Drink less
5. Smile more

Pop some bubbly and usher in the new year in style for me, ok?

Tattoo for Buu?

Um... yeah so I've been wanting a tattoo since I was 8 years old. The problem is I don't know of what and where I would put it. Sounds kind of moronic, right? Well, knowing myself pretty well.. I know that I'll change my mind many times before I settle on something. Once I do decide on what I want for a tattoo, someone will say something .... and *surprise* I'll be wishy-washy about getting it done. So, I'm actually really frustrated right now. All my friends are inked and I reaaaally want to get a tat before I get too old and chicken to do it. Now, I'm not getting one just because my friends are doing it... that'd be dumb.

I think what I want most from a tattoo isn't like a cool/hardcore image, or to have some symbol of me permanently inked onto my skin. What I really want is to feel that pain and say "yeap, been there, done that"... a bit masochistic? Nah, just adventurous.

Oh, and if you're wondering what I want for tattoos:

-roman numerals for "15"
-script for lyrics to a song
-and maybe when I get shitfaced... a nautical star. Generic? Yes. Cute? Fuck yeah.

Christmas 2008

Even though I'm always saying Xmas just ain't the same every year... I actually enjoyed this year's very much. I didn't actually get any gifts but what I liked most was just being in the presence of my family. I guess in the past I was always tired from school and whatnot when I would come home so I just slept through my whole holiday break when I'd go home. This year I spent a good chunk of it hanging out with my sister which was fun... and I think it might also be the fact that I'm single for once. Don't want to bring out the single card in every blog entry, but I think I used to get depressed in the past because the holidays make me feel like things are supposed to be magical especially if you have a significant other. This year I really had no expectations of what Xmas would be like.. thus it turned out better than expected.

I did go post-Xmas shopping and scored some good stuff on sale. I LOVE A GOOD BARGAIN hahah.

Snowboarding

I went snowboarding a week and a half ago and it was fucking awesome. I went on Dec. 18 right when it stopped raining so the snow still felt soft and cushiony on my butt. Given I totally ate it many times and for the next 2 days following I was sore beyond the point of coherent thought... that was my favorite snowboarding trip ever. I finally started learning how to toe and I can't wait to get another chance to practice :)

P90X

Dude, this workout program is so extreme and I can tell the results are going to be there. If you don't know what this is... youtube it or google it. In 90 days you can go from flab to ab.. I know I sound like an infomercial.. but I'm really close to buying the program. I mean it will be like $140 but it looks so worth it! Gah.. has anyone else tried it and gotten results?

Haha.. I've been inspired lately to really improve my body. I mean, wouldn't you want the opposite sex to think you have a hot body?! I know that I can't be dating someone with a nice body while I have a "ugh" body... it would just make me feel so inferior. Does anyone have the videos so I can borrow haha?

Rainy Monday

I hate that I'm unemployed and I especially hate staying at home for too long doing nothing. However, I am sooo HAPPY to stay at home today!! LOL I mean while everyone else is getting paid..they're also stuck getting around in this horrible cold, wet, and windy weather. Whereas I get to stay at home all warm and dry in my bed. Suckas hahaha jk.

HOliday Plans 2008?

A lot of the college kids have already gone home for the winter break, but what's everyone else doing this break?

I have strong tentative plans to go back to LA next Wed/Thurs to go snowboarding with my sister. Friday go hang out with my girls Stella & Esther in LA and maybe spend the weekend with them or just go home-home.

As for Xmas I might go home the day before Xmas Eve or earlier depending on my job status and mood. It doesn't really feel like Xmas does it? I guess I say that every year, but things don't feel quiet as merry .. maybe it's the recession lol

New Year's Eve plans are still vague since I have a 50/50 chance of being in LA or SD unless someone plans to do something outside of those two cities. I hope this year will be the first time I actually get to do something for NYE since in the past I've always just stayed at home with my family and watched the ball drop on tv. Anyone else got exciting plans or suggestions?

Good Sunday Morning!

I'm not quite sure why I'm up so early today given the fact that I had a hard time falling asleep last night. At 7:27 AM I gave up trying to sleep and turned on my laptop to browse the usual sites. I have this really awesome window view because there's this tree outside and its leaves have all turned red and they're slowly falling off the tree. So.. maybe early Sunday mornings aren't so bad since you know you don't have to come into work but it's nice to witness the beginning of a new day.

It's mid-December and reflecting back I can say a lot has happened since November, and whether the changes have been good or bad, I'm happy they happened. The changes let me know that I've at least done something instead of letting the same shit just get static in my life. For one thing, I'm a lot more comfortable being single, and I'm really enjoying it too. When you're with someone, it's no longer about caring for yourself and I think at this age it's important to only think of yourself. However, as hypocritical as this may seem.. I recently started going out on dates with different guys. This is something totally new to me since I've never done casual dates, but I'm having fun just meeting different people and I really am learning to be be more outgoing. I like not having to be attached to one person, and I also like that I'm pushing the boundaries of my comfort zone. No serious boyfriend yet guys!

Being fired from my job was such a great release because I honestly hated it. Now, I'm consumed with finding a new job, but in the back of my mind I'm also noting that if I don't get a job by the 2nd week of January then I'm REALLY going to find a person to take over my lease.

What an intense and fun week this last week was. I know that everyone was busy with finals or working, and since I have neither I just pretty much went out every night. Starbucks meetups, hitting up PB twice, restaurant outings, and everything in between. I hope all my weeks are as exciting ahah

New Music.. at least for me

Yay, so through the recommendation of others.. I have discovered 3 new bands that I really like.Airborne Toxic Event
Their music is pretty chill, and the lead singer's voice is just so rich and thoughtful. If I had to compare their music to someone else... it'd probably be a cross between OneRepublic and Kings of Leon with a dash of Death Cab for Cutie.. and a teensy smidge of Bob Dylan. Some songs to youtube are "Sometime After Midnight" and "Innocence."


The Morning Of
They're pretty much music that anyone can really enjoy. They remind me of Anberlin or HelloGoodbye but with female vocals added along. I like "The World As We Know It" because it was the first song I heard from them and it was "dope".

Danger Radio
It's kind of pop rock.. it falls into a similar category with The Morning Of. Recommended songs "Kiss and Tell" and "Think About It"

Men in Uniform

They are so hot. I've always thought that men who dressed up professionally for their occupation always looked their best. Whether it be a savvy business suit or a firefighting suit. Besides the occasional carnal fantasy associated with guys in uniform, I think what really attracts me to these guys who wear their work clothes, is the idea that they're established and are successful in what they want to do with their life. There's an aura of confidence, sense of wisdom, and downright manliness that comes with a uniform... and it's freaking sexy. *drool*

So cheers to the men who wake up everyday and put on that swoon-inducing suit!

*image from sodahead.com

Unemployed and Celebrating!

Yes, yes it's true. I got "fired", "let go", "laid off"... I'm basically without job since this last Monday. I won't get into the details of how or why this happened except that I am kind of relieved it did. Not to say that I couldn't ever work there again or for Oakley in the future. It's just the work was no longer interesting to me and it honestly had no relation to what I want in a career. I am hoping to get a sidejob going soon, and if not then I am 90% sure I am packing my bags and moving up to LA by the end of January. I've made my peace with the idea of moving back into my parents' home and I'm not going to whine about free rent or food haha.

Anyways... I have been celebrating my unemployment for two days now. And by celebrating I just really mean keeping myself busy and not staying indoors the WHOLE day or night. I actually started the celebration last week.. I guess I knew termination of employment was looming or something. I've discovered that my partying pattern occurs on average every other night. Friday: Drank and smoked. Saturday: Drank waaaay too much. Sunday: OFF DAY! Monday: Drank. Tuesday: Drank. Hmm.. I guess it's not every other day but every two days.. LOL

Album Reviews

BRITNEY SPEARS- CIRCUS
I am a devout Britney fan, so my review will be biased. I already have the leaked album along with the bonus tracks. All the songs aren't bad, except for perhaps "Mmm Papi" and "My Baby". I really like "Amnesia" "Blur" "Kill the Lights" "Circus" and "Mannequinn". The songs are very "bitchy glamour" which is of course the singer's persona. Yay Team Britney!

KANYE WEST- 808s and HeartbreakVERY emo and depressing. It's all done with the vocoder, the beats sound the same, and he's singing instead of rapping. Some songs are okay, but it's a different path Kanye is going and I'm not much of a fan.


GUNS N ROSES- CHINESE DEMOCRACYUm, I like some of the songs on there after finally listening to all the songs. I believe you have to be a true rock fan or GNR fan to appreciate the music they produced here. Yeah, it's not like their previous hits but I can hear where they rocked it out on the guitar riffs and vocals.

Twilight Thoughts

Last weekend was the release of "Twilight" and I saw it on Saturday because I could not handle feeling left out of the discussion. I have read all the books in the series and I loved them, but I knew after seeing a preview that the movie was going to be an EPIC FAIL. The acting sucked, the lines were even cheesier than when I first read them, and the choice in actors did not hold up to the book's portrayal of the characters.

However, because I had already braced myself for this, I was able to enjoy the movie for what it was. I can't wait for the second movie to come out! :) I wish I had my own version of Edward Cullen.

Thanksgiving 08

So it took me 5 hours to drive from San Diego to LA on Wednesday. I left at 1:45pm and I got to the Valley at 6:55pm. WTFRICK. I was so hoping to beat traffic, but I was wrong.

Turkey dinner was great, but like always, unless you have a large family, it was a little understated since it was just my 5person family. But, I was very thankful for the simplest things and family of course.

History

Tuesday Nov. 4 BARACK OBAMA IS ELECTED PRESIDENT!!! Change is upon us.


However, the passing of Prop 8 reminds us that we still have a problem accepting differences.

I Don't Live in a Cardboard Box

Yeah, so I finally moved out of the living room and I got my own room now!! I'm living at University Woods near Arriba and Camino Calma. I love my closet space, the housemates are really cool, and I'm still really close to everything. The only thing concerning me is how I'm going to pay rent and my loans if my job doesn't give me more hours. Sigh..

I've been seriously lagging it on the unpacking process. I still have a huge pile of clean clothes to hang and fold, and there's another big box of clothes I haven't really sifted through yet. However, my shoes have been arranged and the ones still in boxes have been stacked away neatly haha. Looking around, my floor looks like the fitting room floor of JC Penney after a sale. I really like having my own space and privacy.

Sib Revealing Fall 2008

Alpha Theta Pledge Class.... ew. That makes me sound sooo OLD. Anyways, it was held at LJ Shores again (yay). The class is definitely a lot smaller than the usual numbers we get, but that's not a bad thing. It just means it could be easier for the class to bond and communicate. My line has a new babySexy, Judy Yip! The Alpha theme, Alphawockeez, is really cool.

It got kinda hot as the day went along, unfortunately, we didn't utilize the ocean like we did in the past. I guess, that was a good thing because once people started hurling others into the water, Membership pretty much lost control of the actives/pledges for 20 minutes lol. Good job to Jon & Christy for pulling it off!

If I was to give advice to anyone planning & executing an event, never give the masses an option to end an event early when there are still more things the coordinators had planned for the day. The only time you do that is if there is an emergency, or the attendees are constantly complaining and requesting to terminate the rest of the itinerary -- basically when things are going wrong. Because 90% of the time, people are never satisfied and they don't really know what they want.. so of course they'll never fully appreciate the work a coordinator puts into his/her event.

Halloween 2008

It was definitely interesting. On Thursday I dressed up as a doll with a love for the color pink. Got a drink spilled on me and after that the night was pretty much done. The house party was cool, but got broken up way too early. Stumbled into my room at 12am.

Friday went to a couple of house parties. One was a Delta Sigma Phi frat party. Dressed up as a "sexy intern" lol.

Next year, I am determined to either go to Santa Barbara or start the celebration sooner than Thursday night :)

Guns N' Roses Album = Mixed Feelings

So on November 23, after 18 years in the making, Guns N' Roses is finally releasing a new album.

PRO: Dr. Pepper is giving everyone a free can of soda to celebrate the album release

CON: So, far the songs which have been leaked on line... SUCK.

After such singles like "Welcome to the Jungle" and "Sweet Child O' Mine" they're going to come out with crap like "There Was A Time"?! EWWWWW!!!! Sad. So sad.

I so far only like "Shackler's Revenge" from the new Chinese Democracy album. LAME.

Mid-October Stuff

*picture taken in September 08 at El Torito. Apparently, I do get slightly red.

So, much has happened since September.

I'm still in Tiffany's living room *sad*
Still fat *super sad*
Poor *just sad*

Last weekend I attended Alpha Theta's Installations Ceremony aka new APO pledges. Um, there's a LOT of guys in the class. Everyone looks so young. Sigh. It's a sign. Age really does start to show. Whatever. I still think l look awesome. Oh yeah, and GBM was so damn boring. What the hell happened. It's like no matter how cute and funny you try to be.. it's still dry. I mean, okay, I admit that GBM was probably boring during my time too.. but it was so fun for me because I just had fun fucking around. No one even makes fun of other people or call them out when they're being stupid anymore. At least I looked cute in my outfit.

Last night I saw "Secret" directed by and starring Jay Chou at the SD Asian Film Festival. I have to admit that I liked it up until the very end.

Um... I'm getting into my classical music phase again. I totally think Bach is awesome.

Fall in San Diego, CA

*picture taken in Times Square with MY canon sd450

I woke up Sunday morning and found myself surprised by the chilly weather. Although it warmed up as the day progressed, it still felt nice to feel that bite in the air. I miss experiencing autumn in New York City. Seeing leaves change colors, sitting in Central Park, people-watching, and then drinking coffee at night in Bryant Park.

San Diego has the wackest fall ever. It's cold in the morning, warm during the day, and then undecided at night. Ugh, I can't even find a decent park to just chill at. The only park I'm contemplating really visiting is Balboa Park but there is no way in hell I'm trekking all the way over there. I might do so on the weekends, though. I plan to visit the modern and photographic art museums there. I actually haven't visited a museum by myself so I'm hoping I won't look lame if I go alone.

Fall is about wearing the cutest outerwear and layering clothes to look effortlessly chic and warm. I can't wait for that! Something I'm looking forward to is Halloween...not because I'm expecting the drunkest fun possible, but because I'm hoping my costume turns out cute.

Speaking of holidays.. I can't wait for Thanksgiving!!! Mmm... pumpkin pie. Mmm... mashed potatoes. Mmm... Macy's Thanksgiving Float Parade. Mmm... waking up and doing nothing while my mom cooks. Lol jk on the last part. I help out too....

my heart just got clawed out of my chest. it hurts so much.

Bad Dream? More like a Bad Week

I'm listening to Keane's "Bad Dream" right now... ugh.

Where do I even begin? I'm breaking out on my face. I hardly have the time and motivation to work out anymore. Work is starting to feel more tense with changes in procedure and environment. People around me are starting to feel unreliable. It's just really sad, when people see you happy and they can't deal with that. Like, what the fuck. Just leave me alone. I don't fuck with your happiness so don't fuck with mine. All I have to say is this:

Karma is a bitch.

Do I know this as a fact? Yes. Whenever I did something not so great, I was met with a moment of "you fail." When my exes screwed me over, you can bet they got screwed over somehow in the long run. When my "friends" thought they were too cool for school, they eventually ended up digging their own graves. So, if people want to try to tamper with my life and the people I care about, they're just doing themselves an injustice. I'm all for second chances because no one is perfect, but I don't believe my happiness should be sacrificed along the way.

Retail Therapy & Friday Night Coma

After what was especially a long day at work because I didn't want to be there (my personal reasons being the cause not the actual work itself), I visited the mall with my apartment mates. I ended up spending money. Wack. BUT... it was a present to myself. I've gone through so much in the last month that I really just needed to give myself something to cheer me up. I scored a fake leather jacket at Forever21 and some pleather black leggings. I honestly don't know when I'll be able to wear them, but I'll figure that out later. I also got a cute t-shirt at Charlotte Russe.

Although I really need to save money for my apartment for when I move out, I really needed something to cheer myself up. Things have been difficult for me, and I can't help but feel like someone's testing me to see if I can still stand at the end of the day.

Then, for dinner we went to Lolita's on Clairemont Mesa Blvd. So GOOD. SO FAT. Gah I barely ate most of my pollo asado fries. Kenny took my leftovers. Got home and literally fell onto my bed and napped for like an hour or so. Since then, I've been nursing my tummy and catching up on my tv shows online.

Yeah, I skipped out on Fall Fest 2008 featuring Lupe Fiasco. Why? Because I was never that big of a fan to begin with, and for good reason since I heard over 500 people were turned away from RIMAC Field due to max capacity. Suuuucks. Good thing I didn't buy a ticket.

Recommended New Music

The Killers- Human
It's kind of 80s pop, but that's always been their style, mixed in with some British new wave elements. Makes me think of a upbeat high-tempo version of what Coldplay would sound like if they weren't so emo.

Keane- Spiralling
Pretty different from the music they've made in the past. Definitely more dancey dancey. I like it. Makes me think of "Pop! There goes my heart" from "Music & Lyrics"??

Keane- The Night Sky
Now this is definitely like their songs from before. You know, the sad/contemplative type of sound. It's good for when you're feeling down or just chilling out by yourself.

Paramore- Decode
TWILIGHT FANS! Haha. Paramore is a good band for a pop rock category. The lyrics definitely mesh with the first book's storyline. *Sigh* Edward Cullen...

--okay this isn't new but it's still worthy of a DL--
Death Cab for Cutie- I Will Possess Your Heart
Awesome lyrics, and the beat is truly developed in its sound and instrumental use.

Happy October

Today is Day 2 of October 2008 and it's more than safe to say that MUCH has happened since September. Let's all get some perspective and find common ground.

Looking forward to AC/DC & Guns 'N' Roses albums.

Another thing: NEVER EVER take for granted what you have in life. This pertains to family, jobs, friends, and being skinny.

it's late...

Hi. So, I just got back from a couple of drinks with my good friend Tina. :) heart her. [side note: I ordered a June Bug and she got a Midori something... I drank most of her drink]

Some things on my mind:

-people change. like no matter what, sometimes you just don't end up friends because someone's gotta be a bitch. example: Audrina and LC from The Hills, although Audrina was casted as LC's friend...
-aren't you tired of chasing after things? I am. I'm tired of chasing after people, jobs, homes, happiness.
-why do people remain friends with assholes?
-Twilight/Edward Cullen is awesome
-can I pull off a blonde wig?
-if you touch a butterfly's wings and then touch your eye, do you go blind?
-why is Best Buy the only one authorized to sell the Guns 'N' Roses album Chinese Democracy?

There are more questions, but no answers. I am LE TIRED! and buzzed. and i wish i was high. More details on my weekend back in THE VALLEY! IN THE NEXT POST!


p.s. Tina's not in that picture above. BUT that was taken around this time last year

Quickie Post

I haven't posted in so long, and lots of things have happened since then. But for now, all I'm going to say is that things are starting to fall into place, and I'm really happy, stressed, and excited!

I'm going home this weekend! Yay, but not yay. My parents are going to bitch me out once they get over the whole "I haven't seen you in a while, so I'm going to be nice to you" moment. I think I'm going to the LA County Fair this weekend because it's the last weekend. I'm excited for fried goodies.

Sadly, I still have not seen "Burn After Reading" or "Eagle Eye"...gay.

My Favorite Disney Princess

Hands down, it's Belle from "Beauty & the Beast." She's a brunette, smart, and reads books. I related with her the most. However, I completely love the Prince from "Sleeping Beauty" and I LOVE the song "Once Upon a Dream." It's so romantic *sigh*

I know fairy tales are just that-- fairy tales. But, I don't want to give up on the idea of being whisked away by love and having your dreams come true. I'm still very realistic about life, and how hard it is, but having a little imagination and hope doesn't hurt. Yeah.. I'm a sappy romantic at heart.

"tale as old as time"

HAPPY SEPTEMBER!

Boo to the end of summer days, but cheers to a new season of TV shows, new stylish fall fashions, and fun adventures to be had! Here's to a hopefully good fall for me especially since I won't be returning to UCSD anymore, and that alone is a scary thought. But, I'm dealing. Slowly.

I'm excited to see some of the younger kids who went home for the summer. I'm also anxious to see how APO will fare without me around lol. I'm not like "the shit" but you gotta admit I kind of made APO a little more interesting! Yay for new life experiences (corny)!

I saw myself in the mirror today...

and it wasn't good.

I'm going on Operation Diet today. Especially since I'm poor, I won't be eating at restaurants anymore, so I will be eating the food I actually get from grocery stores. No, I won't be eating fried chicken from Vons, but I will be eating bland turkey sandwiches that I make. I REALLY want to lose 5-10 lbs by the time Halloween hits. O_o I lost 2 lbs last week and that made me feel good. Except I probably gained it back when I got Taco Bell on Sunday.

GOSSIP GIRL PREMIERE!!!!

Ahhh I just finally watched the season 2 premiere of GOSSIP GIRL! *squeeeaaal* It was SO. GOOD. Gah it really played to my girly emotions too. I loved Blake and Leighton's hair and Ed Westwick was sooo incredibly hot. *swoon*

That was such a teeny-bopper entry.

Maturity

In these last 3 days of my life, I've never felt more mature than I do now. Usually when I have problems I tend to runaway or rely on someone to distract me from what's happening to me. But, lately after chatting with 3 really good friends of mine, I learned that what I'm going through is completely normal and common at this stage in my life. I realized that this is life. I've been sooo sheltered from the most complex human emotions that I was never equipped with the strength to deal with them on my own. I only encountered them through others and on TV, so I always thought it would be easy to deal with until I started experiencing it, too.

Things are starting to look up for me as I had hoped they would once a certain puzzle piece fell into place. Now, I have a plan or goal to work towards as I start developing a better appreciation for the situation I've been given. What's scary is how this really is the beginning of my new life as an "adult"... no more safe "school/college" bubble to hide under. I'm definitely not going to let myself get hurt by others because of my own insecurities. Heh, I totally feel like LC from "The Hills" right now... minus the mediocre clothing line.

Labor Day Weekend, Thus Far

On Saturday, I moved in completely into Tiffany Luong's apartment at International Gardens, but I sorta live in her room and living room. Yeah, this is just temporary until I find a real home. Hopefully I can save up enough cash to find a place without having to ask for my parents' money. Later that night, I went to El Torito with Stella and chatted over some drinks. It was so fun to just catch up with her and get slightly plastered. Yeah, I'm pretty amazed at myself for getting home safely not because I was so drunk but that I know my limits and capabilities. I ordered a "Long Beach" and "Desert Pear Margarita" and yeah I was pretty happy at the end of the night!

Sunday was a chill day of just visiting IKEA for Swedish meatballs and just watching movies. I rented "The Prince & Me" "Prince & Me 2: Royal Wedding" and "Romy and Michelle's High School Reunion." Dude, I love Prince & Me!! I am a huge sucker for those romantic things..sigh. At night, I crashed Tiffany and Michael's big/lil catchup and got dinner at Sushi Ota in PB. That place is pretty pricey but the sushi is sooo good. Like I think that's the only place where I actually liked their salmon sashimi; other places usually taste fishy. Mmm... their tuna and unagi are awesome. Fatass.

For today, I was kind of planning to go to "Labor Day at the Bay" but I'm not sure if I should get wasted for a whole day. I mean, people give me a weird look when they hear that sometimes I start my day off with a couple of beers. Today might just be a chill/read a book type of day. Hope whoever else reads my blog has a great Labor Day weekend!

Yeah, You Make Me Feel Shiny & New...

Like a VIRGIN!!!

I love LOVE LOVE vintage Madonna. That's my new song to strut to in front of the mirrors as I try on clothes. I don't know why it should pertain to me trying on clothes.. maybe because new outfit ideas are like sex to me? Ok gross. I think it's just really fun to sing-a-long to as I'm sashaying side to side in my outfits.

P.S. Isn't her outfit fucking badass? I idolize her. Although that makeup is a lil trannylicious for me.

Playing Catch Up

So I caught up with a friend today, and it was just really fun to laugh so hard that my Asian eyes naturally got smaller.I 'm trying my best these days to take more initiative and call up friends to hang out because people are busy and sometimes you can't always expect them to call you up. I am looking forward to more playdates. Expect a call from me soon! Haha.

Yeah I know the picture isn't relevant in any sense.

New AC/DC!

So I'm sure not many people are AC/DC fans... if you guys don't know who they are, they're a hard rock band from the 70s. They're the ones who made awesome songs like "Highway to Hell", "Back in Black", "Thunderstruck" etc. Well, they're coming out with a new album "Black Ice" and one of their songs has been leaked!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5YTYiuIHF3I

The song is titled "Rock 'N' Roll Train" and I have to say that I LOVE IT! Yayuh =]

Big Bear! Rawr!

Super fun mini-vacation! It may be hard to believe but I LOVE the outdoors. I love going on hikes, I love the mountains, and I love waking up to fresh air! We stayed in a cabin, but the bed sucked. However, the indoor jacuzzi was really nice. Explored downtown Big Bear (the village), checked out the marina/lake area, and got a magnet for my mom which I've lost somewhere in my room. The dining in Big Bear really isn't too shabby up there. First night had dinner at Cowboy Express Steak & Bar; second day had brunch at Boo Bear's Den and then dinner at Peppercorn Grill (sooo YUMMY). I wish it had lasted longer because for a couple of days I got to forget about problems in my life.

P.S. That picture was taken on my digital camera on the ski lift at Summit

Glamour Tip of the Day: Showing Good Face

To take cute pictures, you have to learn what are your best angles, and where the light hits your face. Now, this may sound a little conceited or self-loving.. but you have to spend at least some time in the mirror posing, and taking pictures of yourself.

If you have a double chin, make sure you're not looking down.

Everyone has a "good side" unless you're lucky and born with TWO good sides. *Bitches*

The "arm pose" is a great way of hiding fat arms. You know, when you pose with your arm on your hip. Make sure your fingers aren't doing something weird though because sometimes your fingers can look amputated or claw-like.

Practice smiling. Sometimes your natural smile isn't cute.

That's all for now! Hope I didn't come off as bitchy!

The Weather Today

Um. It actually sprinkled a bit this morning when I was driving around. WTF. I actually really like cloudy, semi-cool days during the summer. They're really nice surprises to have in the middle of hot, sunny summers. I think what I like most about them is that they make me feel like no matter what time of the day it is, it still looks like morning to me. Mornings are my favorite parts of the day because everything still looks fresh, innocent, and hopeful (unless it's a rainy morning because those are just rainy days. There is no separating a rainy morning from a rainy afternoon).

I was planning to tan today, but I'm really happy to have an excuse to maybe jog during the day now. I HATE jogging around the neighborhood when it's sunny outside because the sun just sucks all the energy out of my body. Maybe, I'll finish "Wicked" (the book) today.

Sites I Check Religiously

Every morning when I wake up there are a few sites I like to check before I start my day. Of course, the first thing I check is my email. Then, in this order I read through:

-Facebook
-Perez Hilton
-Fashionista
-Craigslist (for about 5-20 min each time I check this site for a job *sad*)
-Forever21
-Post Secret
-New York Times

Nice priorities, huh? I wonder what everyone else's internet browsing ritual is. Facebook/email are probably the first things people are more likely to check than say the news. That's just my opinion.

Movie Post

In the last few weeks I've seen:

-Pineapple Express
-The Wackness
-Dark Knight

I would like to go see Tropic Thunder this week, but as of now I'm really poor so I don't know if I'll be doing any movie hopping anytime soon.

However, I'd like to say that Pineapple Express was really enjoyable, and might be even more so when you're high. Some of the humor wasn't as funny maybe it's because I had hyped it up too much for myself.

Sincerely Annoyed

My pet peeve, among many, is when guys talk about how "hot and sexy" girls are in front of me. Now let's get one thing straight-- I AM NOT JEALOUS NOR DO I WANT YOU TO LIKE ME IN THAT WAY. It's just so annoying and disgusting when guys do that in front of other girls. Like, have some CLASS, please. If she was really that attractive, then why don't you fucking make a move instead of just sitting around and talking about her like you have a chance?!

Apparently, many guys are aware that they are out of their leagues, so they keep themselves content by merely discussing how hot she is. Get some fucking balls or shut the fuck up. I don't need to hear that shit, like do you ever really hear girls discussing how hot guys are in front of their guy friends? Not really. It's not only annoying, disrespectful, and gross, but it really just makes guys look like pervy losers.

I've encountered way too many guy friends who do that in front of me, and I'm no longer just going to smile and say nothing. Walking away or ignoring the guy are my new solutions.

Viva La Vida

That's the title of a song from Coldplay's new album. "I used to rule the world..." It's a rather calming and as usual, contemplative song from the group. What have I been up to lately? This last weekend I left San Diego. It was a great mini-trip.

Since then, I've been sitting in my room listening to 80s Europop and rock, with the occasional contemporary song or two. I check Craigslist.org and other job sites almost religiously. From time to time I'll leave my room to get food or workout. Other than that, I've been trying my hardest to avoid using money because I am jobless and poor. Emphasis on poor. I hang out with some friends here and there. I've gotten tanner and possibly more cancerous.

However, the point of this blog entry is likely to start here. I have the most schizoid and psychoanalytic personality anyone could ever assume. Behind a mask of "dumb blonde moments" and slightly lecherous wit, is a girl who sits waiting for her moment to be acknowledged. I want to believe my moment will come sooner than later, but time is starting to prove me wrong. The whole "starving artist" image is totally what I'm portraying right now, and I don't look good while doing it. So finances aside, my heart is going through a lot of ups and downs. One moment it feels pretty exuberant with complete and utter silliness, and the next just sheer disappointment and pain. I guess that's life, right? The ability to feel all these feelings are supposed to be a gift. But, I wish the feelings were more consistent because, honestly, nothing in my life is stable right now.

I have a "Princess Complex". I don't wish I was one nor do I believe myself to be one, but in my small and sometimes icy heart, I wish someone would treat me as one. Do I deserve it? Probably not, but one can hope right? I've been feeling like a princess lately, but I wonder how long it will last until the cruelty of reality lassos itself onto me.

November Rain

There's this really great song by Guns N' Roses "November Rain". The lyrics aren't groundbreaking, but they're still great to listen to on any night when you're feeling alone or just in the mood for a rock love ballad. If you're a fan of 80s rock or just bored, please take a look at the lyrics they're pretty sweet. However, it's the guitar that really makes the song.

I hated growing up, and by that I meant going through high school and parts of college. Sometimes the "journey" was horribly uncomfortable, confusing, and lonely. I'm sure everyone feels lonely, but I have this desperate need to not be alone. Yet, when I'm in crowds or invited out, I just want to be alone. Some people have told me before that they notice I'm a pretty lonely person or I don't seem to like being alone. I guess it's true.

Ever since elementary school I was always searching for my "best friend".. you know, the type where you could share everything, fight occasionally, but never get sick of each other. As time went on, I started to worry the best friend didn't really exist. Now, it's too late. We're all too old to have a best friend, and no one has the time to just hang out. Everyone seems content on just being acquaintances; shit, we're even friends with our sworn enemies. Deep down, I'm needy and afraid of being alone. Maybe it's because I was the oldest child so I had to do a lot of things on my own, which should mean that I'm okay with being independent. I am, but it also caused me to constantly question my next move or feel alone as I make a path of "firsts" in my life.

I'm sure this isn't new or special, just a case of being scared and lame.

P.S. I know the picture kind of doesn't match the tone of this entry, but I'm trying to stay positive in the end. That's me during AZ Sib Revealing last Fall 07

Rejection

I had an interview for an internship/coordinator position just this last Thursday at some "successful marketing firm" and I did fairly well on the interview. Well, I didn't get the position. It's cool because that just means I can still have my summer adventures which will most likely happen on weekdays and I won't have to think of excuses to get out of work.

It just felt really good to finally hear from SOMEONE after applying for like 30+ jobs. Now, I know why they say apply for a job 6 months in advance. It's not because the interview itself will take 6 months, but because it's going to take you that long to finally hear back from someone after sending out your resume to 100+ job posts. Depressing, much?

Man, trying to get a job is a horrible, depressing, stressful waiting game. HORRIBLE!! I'm totally envious of those who come out of college with a job already.

Rehab & Addictions

Okay. So I'm a firm believer that if you have problems or addictions to something bad then maybe you should check into rehab.

HOWEVER, if you're above the influence and you KNOW your limits then why not indulge? I believe that drinking once or twice a day doesn't mean you have a problem, it just means you enjoy the taste of alcohol. Weed? Not even a real drug. Have you ever heard of anyone overdosing on weed? Exactly my point. If anything people should ban sleeping pills.

It becomes a problem when you start to skip payments to buy drugs or alcohol or when your friends no longer invite you out to events.

Like Ms. Winehouse says "They try to make me go to rehab and I said NO, NO, NO"

*Image: Me at SunGod

Songs You Should ROCK Out To

Regardless of where you are, people SHOULD know about these songs. I mean, you can't live your whole life only listening to one genre of music. EDUCATE yourselves and get away from Soulja Boy. Here's a list of songs I'm slowly compiling and firmly believe you should own on your iPod or mp3 player.

**THE CLASSICS**
Journey - Don't Stop Believing (I'm playing this at my wedding)
Journey - Lights
The Who - Baba O' Riley
Poison - Every Rose Has Its Thorn (good song to listen when you're drunk and feeling karoake-y)
Warrant - Cherry Pie
Van Halen - You Really Got Me

**MORE RECENT**
Anything by...
-Weezer
-Nirvana
-The Killers
-Angels & Airwaves
-New Found Glory

.. to be continued and don't argue with me! I like these bands.

Lessons

If there's anything I've learned crucially in the last few months is a lot can change in your life. Most of the time you go in with an idea of what life will be like, but through nature, fate, and decisions you made probably months or just weeks ago... here you are. Definitely, for the love of a social life, appreciate your college years. Although, I've loved every single moment of it--from the awkward first move-in day to when I took pictures on a hot day on RIMAC field; I'd re-do college in a heartbeat. Seriously, I would.

I know college was seriously, like, a month ago so I'm not some old-timer, but I already miss it and everything it stands for. It was your legit excuse in life for:

-going to bed drunk
-waking up drunk
-messing around for the sake of testing your limits of boredom
-meeting people without thinking "geez, I hope they can land me a job"
-purchasing RedBull in large quantities without being judged
-procrastinating
-believing life was just beginning

Shit, I miss this institution of excuses.

I don't know what my life is going to be in 1.5 months. That's scary. I could be in San Diego with/without a job or back in San Fernando Valley. Let's just hope that I get a job soon so I can enjoy the rest of my summer because so far it's been stressful and traumatic.

Morning Frustrations

So I purchased new contacts through 1-800 Contacts.com with the prescription I got through the student health optometrists at UCSD. Given I didn't order them for a good month after I got the prescription.. that shouldn't matter. So I get my new contacts and when I put them on they're fucking blurry as hell. I call in and they tell me that....

1. the optometrist I had seen no longer works there
2. it's not their prescription, it's probably MY eyes and that the astigmatism I have may be affecting the contacts I ordered because they're a different brand from what I was given for a sample pair
3. I can't come in for a checkup until NEXT MONDAY

So now, not only do I have to return the contacts I ordered, order another prescription, WAIT FOR ALL THIS TO HAPPEN.. I might have to buy toric lenses for my fucking astigmatism. Toric lenses are significantly more expensive. FUCK ME NOW.

I don't get how if the brand is different from the sample trial pair I was given, shouldn't the bitch have known that before giving me that prescription?! FUCKING HELL. I have to walk around freaking HALF BLIND because I procrastinated on buying lenses sooner and because some bitch fucked up my prescription and UCSD doesn't want to take credit for it.

It Hurts

When you're really disappointed in someone, it just hurts your heart so much. The type where it feels like someone's gripping your heart to make it stop beating. That's the pain I'm feeling right now.

It just feels horrible to know if I don't try to keep contact with these people, they will probably never care.

Move Along

It's a very slow Saturday night. The type where you sit around wondering if it's your fault for not having exciting plans to get drunk or that there really isn't anything going on tonight. Well. I'd say it's half and half. I'm kind of upset at a lot of things tonight which is probably why I think tonight is especially a drag.

1. I got into an argument with my dad where I basically hung up without saying bye and he said he would never call with advice ever again or maybe he said he would never call... shrug. Normally, I don't care but this time his anxiety and overreacting has gotten to me and got me thinking about my life in 1.5 months

2. So there's this person who's been pretty influential in my life and lately, I've been getting second thoughts about their intentions towards me. Like, I kind of heard some stuff that makes me second guess why they became my friend. I'm not sure whether I should even bring it up with him/her because their actions say the contrary. I need advice on this.

3. I just finished binge eating. I feel completely horrible and all I want to do is throw up.

I have so so so much on my mind right now. The answers won't be coming anytime soon. I have horrible anxiety and I'm constantly stressed over, sometimes, nothing. I just wished that person would care about me.

sigh

so that last entry was something I wish I could tell someone, but instead I've resigned to just never speak to that person ever again. sucks.

Hi.

Do you know how many times I've defended you? Sure you may come off as fucking nice and sincere, but holy shit you got more fucking skeletons in your closet than anyone I've ever met. Ever tried confiding in me? What? Can't trust me bitch?

What pisses me off the most is this whole "Oh I feel like I can't trust or rely on that many people because they don't care... or no one is reliable" BULLSHIT. Like HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I OFFERED ANYTHING TO YOU?!

Wow. All it took was 4 months really to show me your fucking true rainbow brite colors. Dumb bitch. I hope you're fucking happy with your shitass life. Fuck you and your fucking "friends"... yeah I hate those assholes too.

P.S. sometimes being a lil thicky thick isn't going to make you look more attractive. in your case, this is true.

Hancock-- Not That Super

Given it's a Will Smith movie and he did a good job playing the "bitter superhero in need of rehab" the film itself was mediocre. Everything just seemed like an afterthought.

*SPOILER ALERT*SPOILER ALERT*

I mean the "romance" between Charlize and Will's character was a twist that was predictable but developed erratically. If you guys are bored and don't feel like watching "Wanted" or "Wall-E" again for 3rd time, then go watch "Hancock." But if I was you I'd wait til DVD release and use that $10 on beer for this weekend!!! =]

APO Gossip Girl

I decided to bring this type of entry back for a while because let's face it... it's kind of funny. Sometimes I wish there was someone who would write blogs about the funny things people do in APO. Now, that I'm no longer around for GBMs who else is going to entertain the masses with shit they never knew about people? =]

Here's a little history they didn't teach you in high school... once upon a time ago, the lil goody two shoes boy we all know and discuss over and over in our circles used to be, how do I say this.. not so good? Know who I'm referring to? No? Well how about this for extra credit: We all love a before and after Cinderella story, but we don't always love Cinderella even after the makeover. Can you guess who this ugly duckling with a complex is?

You know you love me... xoxo


*this is all for fun people. don't take this seriously because if you start bitching and i hear about it, i will rip someone's face off.

Wednesday... so far so good!

So there's this person who's really been making my week so far seem pretty nice. Granted I don't get to have many talks with them but when I do get a chance to say hi or ask how he/she is doing.. the little talk ends up just really making my day. I love that person for it!

Now this brings me to this question: who's your "cheer me up" person in your life? For most I'm sure it's their boyfriend or girlfriend or mother/father. But, what if you don't really talk to your parents like that or if you're single? It's hard to open up to people and make connections that are long-lasting. However, that doesn't mean you should contain your thoughts to yourself.

I've been doing it for a while now, just keeping everything inside. I'm a pretty secretive person for sure. I don't think anyone knows EVERYTHING that I've done in life or what I really think of people. However, that doesn't make me a bad person or at least people shouldn't view me as bad for having thoughts that I like to keep to myself. It becomes a problem though, when sometimes I start to justify other's views towards me in my own mind without even talking to them about what's on my mind.

Another thing I'd like to bring up is people's view of who I am. Did you guys know that:

-I'm one of the hugest dorks/nerds around when it comes to Harry Potter, Spongebob, good movies, and Disneyland
-I don't always wear short shorts or skirts
-my view on life and people isn't really negative it's just realistic
-hip hop music isn't the only thing I listen to, but classic and alternative rock is a hit with me too

No. Apparently this is what people see: intimidating, high maintenance, bitchy, slutty, whore. O_o where did that come from? Eh. I don't really care because I do like who I am and what I look like. Believe it or not, I had to work to change how I looked before. I didn't really look like the "biatch" that I do now. I wore glasses. I mean c'mon. DRASTIC CHANGE.

Anyways, the moral of this blog is to open up and talk to people. No point in hiding from others because most likely they'll just come to their own conclusions about you anyways.

Happy July 1st-- The First Official Day of Summer

...according to me. =]

Memorial Day weekend doesn't start summer for me just because I'm still in school at that time and finals are just around the corner. Mid-June.. when the official day of summer is located, it just doesn't feel legit. But, July 1st is a good day to start summer because it's undeniable that by that time it's summer. No one's in school except for the losers taking summer school (haha jk!!), the weather's way too sunny, and everyday all you can think about is what you're going to do this summer.

Needless to say, I will be doing a LOT of drinking this summer =]

Weekend Recap

Friday: My first day back to work. Boring. As a receptionist, I no longer answer phone calls. Now I just kind of sit. Oh yeah Thursday night, I saw "WANTED"... and I loved that movie. Angelina Jolie.. sexy. At night, I watched Leo get drunk and turn semi-Hulkish. That was fun, but I only say that because I made sure to distance myself by at least 7 feet from him. HAhaha

Saturday: I finally did the majority of my packing and moving. Kelvin helped me out and omg it was such a huge difference. Just one person helping you move cuts the time it would've taken me to do it all by myself by more than half. Then, I saw "Wall-E" at night. I am severely and miserably in love with that robot. It's by far the best Pixar/Disney movie I've seen in a long time.

Sunday: Finally got my mattress and box spring into the new place. Once again, did jack shit.

Monday: Work was miserably boring. Woke up earlier than usual today to move my chair and bag of crap into the new place before work.

That was a pretty boring blog.

what a saturday morning

this is harking back to my old school blog days of anger.

i'm always fucking disappointed by fucking human nature. people can be so cruel. tell you one thing, do another. i mean, i'm a fucking nice person and my intentions are always earnest and good. so why is it that people have to be so mean to me?

why even try? if you're going to just fucking use me?! like what the fucking hell! i feel severely alone and foolish.

however, the grownup thing for me to do right now is just to act like i like the person, and hope they will fucking see the error of their ways.

Summer Movies

Here's a list of movies I'd like to see :)

• Hancock
• Wall-E
• Get Smart
• Tropic Thunder
• The House Bunny
• Space Chimps
  

I think that's it for now, but I'll add that I did get to see "The Incredible Hulk" and holy cow, it made me want to go GREEN. Har har.

Graduation

I am officially an alumnus of UCSD's Class of 2008. WOOHOO! Pictures are posted on my Facebook. Many thanks again to everyone who has given me a reason to want to repeat college. It was a super hot day and everyone got burned. Sadly, it was so hot and I hate getting sweaty that I wasn't able to fully enjoy the commencement experience. The whole time I just kept saying "let's get this over with!!!"

I think it will hit me more when summer ends, and instead of returning to school, I'll be doing something else with my life.

Less Than 24 Hours Away

HOLY SHITFUCKERS I'm GOING TO GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE TOMORROW!


FUCK. 4 years went by toooo quickly. SAD.

It's Hitting Me

you know, when you cry because it's "the end"? i never cried at graduation or goodbye ceremonies. never.

but here, i am. in my dim, messy, half-packed room. crying. i will really miss everyone i've met. even th0se i only got close with in the last few months, i'll probably miss you the most. my best friend...

thanks to everyone for all the absolutely wonderful memories i've made in college. i suspect i'll be replaying them often once i leave san diego.

Senior Summer Envy

I guess my summer's beginning although I haven't even walked across the stage to get my fake diploma yet. Everyone around me is gearing up for some fantastic summer going abroad or visiting parts of America. Or worse, they've already gotten a job so now they're just doing nothing to pass the time because they can. Bitter. Much.

My time in San Diego is cancerous. I only have two months left in this beachy town. It's not even like I have two months to get a job because this is it. By the end of August my parents want me back in dreary San Fernando Valley. I don't have anything to come home to except for family. Sorry I sound so horrible right now, but I can't help it. Eh I guess I'll just stop right here before I come off as evil.

I'm so poor I have no choice but to move back home. I'm not frolicking in Europe or enjoying the fact that I'm done. All I can think of is how I'm going to make next month's rent.

Secret Messages

My mood usually can be revealed through the songs I put on repeat. Usually a secret about how I feel either towards life or a certain person are sung by the lyrics.

Maroon 5- Won't Go Home Without You
A Fine Frenzy- Almost Lover

Regrets. I hate having them but nonetheless they're there. I just hope people will forgive me for them.

People Can Surprise You

A Long Post During Finals

Everything is starting to wind down now. Pretty much everything around me is indicating the end of a milestone. Last meeting for APO, my senior box, cap & gown, last set of classes, last set of finals, everyone being generally younger than me. It was a different year than what I had expected. The way my year is ending and how I'm dealing with it is definitely not what I had imagined.

Sometimes, I can be a really horrible person. I think it's human nature for all of us to possess some sort of bad side to counter balance all the "good" we have. Sometimes though, I think I have way too much evil running through my veins. What I really need is to escape and just be honest with myself because that's something I haven't been able to face for a long time-- who I really am. No one really knows me because I don't even want to know myself. Corny, yes, but honest. As you get older, no one has the time to want to get to know you and I am guilty of that as well.

You can't always run away from the things that make you sad or upset because all it does is prove you can't face the truth. All it to takes is one person to show you who you really are and that's when the big picture starts forming. My picture above is me at a walk marathon I volunteered at. It was raining and fucking cold. Even if you're having an amazingly shitty day, even faking it will get you through the day. Just tough it out at all costs.

Weezer's Pork and Beans :)

After some intense googling, I finally found a link that shares the new single and it works!

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=HURS2ZG2

Go there and at the top enter the code which will most likely say "UFS"
Then download the free one, not premium. Save on to your computer and PLAY!


I am weirdly and completely obsessed with this song. Maybe because I've always been a small fan of Weezer, or maybe because they're song is just so catchy. Either way, this will be the first CD I purchase in probably 6 years.


http://youtube.com/watch?v=muP9eH2p2PI

Here's the YouTube video for it, and it's pretty cute and funny.


Yes, I do <3 alternative rock

H&M

For all those who slightly care about fashion and cheap prices, you should be aware that H&M is now open in Chula Vista!! At the Otay Ranch Center (?) but yes... there's an H&M in San Diego! From La Jolla it's about 35-40 minutes,it's far but hopefully it's worth it. In my experience Californian H&Ms aren't that great, maybe the one in SF is good but the ones in SoCal suck in comparison to the east coast H&Ms.

H&M

2015 Birch Road

Chula Vista, CA

Shootings in my backyard

I come from San Fernando Valley, a bit north of L.A. and it's very suburban, boring, and ghetto at times.

Tuesday night within 6 hours, there were 6 shootings. One being in Northridge which is like 5 min away my house because I live in Reseda which are cities right next to each other. How SCARY.

Article in LA Times http://www.latimes.com/news/local/la-me-shooting22-2008may22,0,6028174.story

Ahhhh fuckin ghetto. Stop being stupid and shooting people. Asses.

Appropriate Dating Ages

So, as a joke.. I've been called a "cougar" before. Not because I actually go after young guys, but because for some unexplained reason people think younger guys like me. Weird, I know. But, if I'm a cougar... then what makes an older guy with a way younger girl then? A perv? Pedophile? Player? Lucky? Douche?

I forget how the dating age calculator works, but I believe you're supposed to take your current age, divide it by 2, and add 7 to that number which will give you the youngest age you can date. For the oldest age you can date I'm not sure but here's a link that lets you figure it out http://lura.net/03/romance/default.asp?birthYear=1986

I can date apparently, 18-30 year olds. Yay for me. -_______-

So if you don't want to be called some urban slang term or get arrested, take this dating age calculator to heed.

Indiana Jones & The Kingdom of the Crystal Skull

Indiana Jones will FOREVER be hot in my book. As in Indy circa "Lost Ark". When I first heard about the 4th installment of Indiana Jones I was about to pee from excitement. I don't care about some of the negative reviews it got. It's still totally worth going to the theatres to see it.

I will be standing in line to see it hopefully tonight! I'd love to have Indiana Jones' children.. I don't know about Harrison Ford, but for Indy, definitely.

Senior Plans

So, for now it looks like I'm going to be moving back home to LA. That's kinda retarded unless things pick up within the next 3 weeks. Unless I get a job I shouldn't stay in San Diego just for fun right?

Anywho. What are people doing after finals? I know there's "Senior Week" planned by ASUCSD, but what else?

I'm thinking:

• Disneyland (since the one I'm planning for Memorial Day is going to be cancelled)



• SF Trip



• San Diego Zoo/Wild Animal Park/Padres Game



• Boston Trip (okay that's if I'm feeling adventurous)

I hope to do at least the first 3 bullet points. Who wants to join me? I'm being serious, guys. I will most likely make a Facebook group :)

P.S. I didn't know what to upload as a picture, so I just chose myself.

Sun God Festival 2008

So... who went to Sun God and thought it was overrated once again?

*raises hand* Me!

The heat was crazy nasty so it would've been nice if they had fixed the Price Center fountain so we could fill it up with bubbles and float around in it. We were compacted into one area like rats. The acts were banal and very "who the hell are they?". Annnnnnd because we couldn't bring alcohol in.. who ended up sober by 3pm? Yes, me, again.

We started the pre-partying at 12:30pm. Left Leo/Kelvin/Julie/Judy's place at around 2pm. Got to school and sobered up by 3pm. Walked for days around campus.

By the end of the night I just felt tired and old. Pictures will be posted on Facebook soon. I will update this blog post with a picture too :)

My 22nd Birthday :)

Thank you to all those who wished me a happy birthday last Thursday May 15th. Many thaankss for those who attended my birthday dinner and gave me presents. Thank you to those in my line who took out time on their busy Thursday to eat lunch with me at Porter's Pub, and THANKS for the surprise birthday cake, and thanks for watching me get drunk in the middle of the day.

So, perhaps this year was the lamest I've ever felt at midnight on the day of my birthday. I sat in CLICS library in Revelle, counting down by myself the last few moments til I turned 22. I was in CLICS studying for a midterm scheduled on the day of my birthday. LAME. This year was a very different feeling. It made me re-evaluate who were my "close and loved" ones. Not because if you didn't say "happy birthday" to me that I had to re-evaluate but it was how you did it. Not that I wanted something special, but for certain people I guess I expected different. It's hard to explain without sounding like a whiny unappreciative bitch, which I am not.


Although it wasn't my drunkest/rockstar moment, I do have to say it was a memorable birthday which I enjoyed. I appreciate everyone who helped me celebrate my birthday whether it was a wall post on Facebook, a hug, paying for my dinner, or getting me a Tiffany's necklace (my lil Jessica got me that!!! <33333)... thanks you guys :)

P.S. Sorry no pictures. Stella has all the pics from my dinner

Woke Up On the Wrong Side

Gah. What a horrible Tuesday morning. First, I bomb my midterm (which I can thankfully opt to not make it count, but that only means I have to kick ass on the final). Second, I find out that I can't graduate unless I pass my classes this quarter.


I'm such a fucking idiot. I thought I was done. Turns out I need 11 more elective units. I HAVE TO PASS FUCKING SOCIOLOGY OF SUICIDE.

I hate myself.

APO Gossip Girl

Wouldn't it be funny if I started a Gossip Girl blog on people in APO.... hah. Well, of course it wouldn't be "funny" but it would be interesting...

"X spotted at a *** family meeting spreading malicious rumors behind X's back. And now X and X both have to work together. Ironic, yes. You know you love me.. xoxo.."


HAHAHA I LOVE that show way too much. I also have way too much time on my hands at work.

p.s. the above is true. do you know who X and X are?

Books. Reading. Being Cool.

One time, after going to the mall, my then best friend asked what I had purchased. I told her I bought what looked to be a really good book. She said, "a book?! why did you get a book?!"

At the time, I was pissed. She was trying to make me look stupid for wanting to buy a book and read as opposed to purchasing some polyester/spandex hoochie top. She always referred to me as this "nerd" or "walking dictionary" just because I referred to terminology containing more than 5 letters and allusions to literary works. WHATEVER.

The point is... people should try to read more. I should try to read more. Harry Potter, sadly, does not count as reading. Playing board games/video games, watching youtube, or reality shows do not stimulate the brain. Get a good book and read it this summer. This is especially directed at all those seniors graduating this June who, like I, probably won't have a job lined up.

7.8 Earthquake in China

Omg. I'm avoiding calling it a natural disaster because disasters like this aren't really disasters since earthquakes have been a part of our planet even before humans were on it. But this is bad. 10,000 are estimated to be injured and almost 5,000 are dead. Most of the victims are children in elementary school. :(

What did our President have to say about this?

"I am particularly saddened by the number of students and children affected by this tragedy"

Blackberry Bold

Sexy isn't it? The Bold or 9000 is supposedly set to be released the same time the Apple iPhone2 is? Well, the resolution matches the iPhone and it's pretty damn sleek and cute. That's what I would save my lunch money for kids.

Mother's Day Weekend

Drove home Saturday morning and spent basically a little more than 24 hours with my mother :). It was a combination celebration of Mother's Day and my 22nd. Ate yummy short ribs and eggrolls. My sister and I gave my mom and aunt bottles of lotion and flowers. Lame but efficient hah. I hope you guys appreciated your mothers yesterday!

Vietnamese Manicurists

The L.A. Times just published this article on Vietnamese manicurists. Um, can anyone say "glorifying the so-called 'American Dream'"?!? The first half of the article makes it sound like being in the nail industry means easy money especially for recent immigrants. The article does touch upon some points which are true, but for the most part ends up glorifying a profession which does little for the Vietnamese community except provide income in a world dominated by non-Asian groups.

Yes, my mother is a manicurist. Yes, I am the stereotypical Vietnamese-American. Yes, the job sucks. And what's up with the whole "white woman saves poor Asian women" spiel? Okay I don't know the history of Vietnamese women in the manicurist industry, but to make it sound like Tippi Hedren was some sort of Mother Teresa and basically "saved" the Vietnamese community is a little far-fetch.

Idiots.