Always Second Best

Everyone has insecurities which range from the small and insignificant to the large and detrimental. It's really easy to be confident when you don't have much to lose. It's when you start investing and exposing yourself to the cruel nature of others that the insecurities build and snowball.

I, like everyone else, am insecure about my looks. I try to hide it but every now and then I'll crack. It's a horrible feeling when you realize you'll never be good enough to be number one. Say someone tells you "you're all I'll ever need" and then you come to discover that although you're all they'll ever need... you are not the standard. This may sound confusing but it makes sense. To put it in another way, you weren't their number one pick of the list. Obviously there's no way anyone can control that and it's unfair to be upset at them if that's just the plain truth.

But I am human. I can't help but be saddened by the realization. I wish I could get over it and not be so silly, but instead I just keep second guessing myself and feeding my insecurities. It seems like everyone closest to my heart wishes I didn't look the way I do.