My Own Event Planner

I love how listening to Iron and Wine's "Resurrection Fern" puts me into a "spring" mindset. I can't tell if I was always meant to love the season of spring or if I love it just because I was born in the springtime.

So, my birthday is coming up and I'm trying to plan my own birthday. Two years ago, I knew exactly what I wanted to do. PARTY IT UP. When I was 21 years old, that's all I lived for: fancy clubs, attending parties on yacht boats, looking for the next big event to get on the guestlist for.. and constantly asking: "so when are we going to VEGAS?!?!?" Now, 1.5-2 years later, one month before my 23rd birthday and I'm wondering "What the heck am I going to do to celebrate 23 years of excellence?" The 21 year old party girl in me says "GO BIG. Vegas! All! The! Way!" *insert image of me downing a tequila shot upon the completion of that sentence* ...... The 22 year old says "Just take it eassyyyyy. Do a small gathering. BBQ. Take care of your liver." I feel a small pressure to do something big and grand, but I want something more intimate. I want to have fun but not deal with the stress of planning it. As a job, I'd totally embrace the stress and logistics of planning an event, but when it comes to my own happiness, I'd rather keep it lowkey. Sometimes people equate the importance of a person with how flashy their party is and that's not always the case.

There's a lot of bullshit that comes with event planning in terms of business and personal. Maybe that's why I haven't really jumped into the industry yet, because I'm scared of compromising the person I've built these last 7 months to become the shallow and plastic event planner I want to be.