it's all retarded at this point

I have anger issues. As a kid, whenever I got upset at something I would slam bedroom doors, knock stuff over, be a complete bitch to my parents... and then I hit puberty and it was all-out war between my parents and I. Since college, I've learned to control my temper and I rarely show how angry I am with others, unless I'm driving (road rage i.e. me yelling "drive faster you fuckin' cunt!" and brake checking asshole drivers).

I've learned that when I am extremely angry at something or someone, I just need to stop and walk away; come back when I'm more calm or not as upset. There are a select number of individuals who will without fail, push my buttons to the max. Like to the point where thoughts of me murdering them are seriously being given consideration. That's how much I HATE those individuals. What's my solution? I distance myself from them. Cut them out of my life. Grit my teeth and smile when they're around. I've tried countless times to be the "bigger man" and extend an olive branch to them. Well.. I'm done. As therapy these are the things I would like to say to them, but can't because once I face them in person I know I won't be able to control myself.

1. You are truly an idiotic and naive shallow dumbass. CAN'T YOU SEE IT'S NOT WORKING?! MOVE ON.
2. Wow, you really think you're THAT good-looking? Last time I checked, having a face that looks like it went through a blender was not hot.
3. Everyone knows your secret. So stop hiding already you fat bitch.
4. OMG. QUIT YOUR BITCHING AND LOSE WEIGHT ALREADY. You have a gym. USE IT.


Man. That felt really good.