Nightmares & "An Icebox Where My Heart Used To Be.."

I have a love/hate relationship with Facebook. I'm completely obsessed and cannot go a day without checking it. However, I hate the minor but hugely significant features on there.. like the "What's on your mind?" status/twitter/mental vomit box on top of every page. Are you supposed to post something mind-blowingly philosophical? Or should you post something retarded like everyone else has? I don't need to know that "work sucks" (I know that already); nor do I need to be informed of where you are location wise "__________ is standing in line at the DMV/Denny's/gas station restroom" (thanks for wasting 3 seconds of my life by reading that). Give me something more interesting to read people!! (P.S. sometimes I am guilty of mental vomiting on Facebook. I am a hypocrite. I know.)

Why did I title this "Nightmares & ....."?? Because I woke up Tuesday morning scared and frustrated. I had a nightmare where I was being chased by this man who was relentless and ultimately wanted to rape me. I was scared but moreso frustrated over how I could not escape him wherever I turned. Since then, I've been feeling ill at ease, and last night up until this morning I could literally feel my soul dying. I just didn't feel anything. Even physically; I was at the gym for 1.5 hours not because I was pushing myself or consciously telling myself to stay at the gym for that long. The time just flew by so quick because my mind was 5000 miles away from the UTC 24Hr gym. Then, something even weirder happened: I mentally and emotionally brokedown and cried last night. I have an idea as to why I'm acting like this: my mind and heart are trying to numb me from potential pain and heartache from whatever it is I'm scared of. I'm so lost right now.

As for the "Icebox..." part of this entry, There For Tomorrow has done an absolutely awesome rock version of the Omarion song. It's a great acoustic cover and calms me down. The song is a part of the compilation "Punk Goes Pop Vol. 2" and my review: 5 cupcakes out of 5 cupcakes (that's how I'm going to rank things from now on.. fuck stars or thumbs ups).

Those are my Thursday rants of the week.