*image from PostSecrets.comI do the same thing. I know I should be more responsible and definitely budget my spending like a mature adult... but I only look at my online account 1-2 times a month. It all started when my credit card statement starting growing past the $600 mark. It wasn't until I graduated and my financial aid was cut off that I really became aware and scared of the situation I was putting myself in. More than once has my checking account dipped into the double digits and I had to ask my friends and roommates to wait a couple more days before I could pay them back. I'm still waiting to save up enough money to pay back all my debts, and this doesn't even include the money I owe in loans and credit cards. I am barely keeping my head above the surface and surviving. It's tough.. I'm not going to sugar coat that one.
What keeps me sane in all this financial craziness is knowing I got a great support system, and realizing not everyone graduates and lands their dream jobs right away. Countless people who are now high-powered execs or successful whatevers, had to endure taking on different odd jobs to make money before realizing what they wanted to do with their life. This is normal; well, normal to everyone who isn't Asian American. Growing up my parents told me hard work meant great rewards later on. There was only one goal I needed to attain at the end of my 16-17 years of schooling and that was a high-paying job which gave me respect and recognition just by hearing the title of my occupation. Imagine my disappointment.. no, wait.. imagine my PARENT'S disappointment when that obviously didn't happen last year and oh wait... this year, too.
So for all those going through a difficult time or taking on an unconventional path: you are not alone and there's nothing wrong with what you're doing. Unless it's porn. I've thought about starring in an Asian fetish once......... my name would've been Suki Maitai.
