UUUGH... VERY UPSET

I did not sleep well last night. First, I was still amped from coffee. Second, I didn't fall asleep right away. Third, I had another idiotic, stupid dream about the same stupid fear I've been having for weeks now. Now, I'm up way too fucking early and I can't/won't go jogging this morning because my head is POUNDING. This has been a horrible beginning to my lunar new year and to my week; I have a horrible dreadful feeling this week isn't going to get much better. Ugh, now that I think about it... yeah my week did start out pretty nasty with nothing but bad incidents starting on Sunday. I definitely need to do something to cheer myself up.

I think I will do at least one of these things to cheer up my attitude and morale:
-not smoke ANYTHING
-go buy room decorations/Valentine's shit even though I FUCKING HATE VALENTINE'S DAY FOR REMINDING ME I AM ALONE AND WITHOUT A MEANINGFUL RELATIONSHIP. FUCK ALL YOU HAPPY COUPLES. DIE. .... haha jk. sort of.
-get a haircut even if it's just a trim
-jog an extra lap
-ignore all the negative energy that surround certain people and just concentrate on myself because I don't need to care or be responsible for what other people want to do with their lives

What a shitty beginning to my week. If anyone fucks with me this week.... just don't, ok? No douchebag/cuntface comments or actions, please.